I quit my job

I quit my job.

Eventually all the pieces fall into place. Until then, laugh at the confusion, live for the moment and know that everything happens for a reason.

I have lived by this quote, this piece of knowledge almost my whole life…certainly during the happy and more peaceful times in my life. There have been times that I have lost sight of this piece of invaluable intelligence, when that happens the I feel myself struggle.

My mom would tell me all the time, as I was growing up, that everything happens for a reason. During some of the most challenging times in my life, it has been the belief that everything happens for a reason that has gotten me through to the other side.

When I was a little over a year into a master’s degree in health care administration, there were some dark and shady abuses of power happening in the department that I was working in at a hospital. In short, I was extremely close to a promotion until my superior decided to prevent that from happening. When that happened, I questioned everything…I was unable to go to work because of the anxiety that my superior caused. I barely got out of bed for a week or two.

In the months preceding that event, during my studies of health care administration, I had taken 2 courses with a professor who was, a bit jaded with regard to the health care system in our great country. The required readings and material for his classes had supported a thought that I had already been aware of…the current health care system is BROKEN.

As long as I can remember, through every job that I have had, the one thing that always remained constant, is that I want to help people.

How can I help people within the confines of a broken health care system?

How can I help people when corrupt people with cruel intentions can prevent me from moving to a more integral position with lies?

I just kept telling myself, everything happens for a reason. When I would tell my story to friends, family, my doctor, I would cry and through my tears, I would say, everything happens for a reason, right? Maybe I am not meant to continue with this master’s in health care administration. Maybe I am not meant to stay with this company that has such a beautiful mission statement, where I thought I would retire from someday.

Then one day, I decided to follow an impulse and found myself sitting in the admissions office of a massage school. Right there on the wall behind the desk of their recruitment specialist was the quote that pulled me out of my darkness.

Eventually all the pieces fall into place. Until then, laugh at the confusion, live for the moment and know that everything happens for a reason.

When she stepped out of her office to make a copy, or retrieve another form, or something; I sneaked a picture. I sent it to all of my friends and family who had listened to me cry for the last few weeks. I told them all, this is it!! I quit the masters degree studies and I quit my job at the hospital and I started massage school.

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